‘I do not want to push myself to someone’s schedule. If you are busy I would not mind disturbing you unless it is really, really important but I hate being taken for granted.. though I am a self-confessed bipolar.’
This had me sighing for a minute. That line is exactly the statement my not-so-recent ex dropped in my multiply account. VERBATIM! And this is one valid reason for me to, at least, stop visiting my multiply account. You know the feeling when you want to recall your college memories (that i can only find in multiply) and you end up staring blankly in-front of the monitor because you can’t do away with the idea that your ex played a big part during those years.
The statement had me thinking, too, as to how stupid (or what-have-you) I have been in my past relationships. I hate myself for taking that particular ex for granted. I mean, the idea of letting someone feel that way. Gets? Well maybe, I had my own reason for doing so but please, Vince, wake up!
I really hope I’d not end up hearing/reading that line again in my future melonshake/s and/or relationship/s. It makes me think I’m super bad. Worse, it helps me prove to myself that I am not capable of loving, of seriously committing to someone. Because as of now, I think, and I am sure of this, I am a selfish ass.
p.s.: sorry ex. 😦